Monday, March 29, 2010

Lower surgery and my wife

This evening I shared with my wife the surgeons that I found and decided that we should "talk" about what my possible surgery plans would look like. The entire time I have been thinking about surgery I would ask my wife different things and inform her what I have found and she would always say "Whatever makes you happy" occassionally making comment that a "Phalloplasty would be nice" (for her own purposes) but that if I got a meta that would be fine too. Outside of that she never said much about lower surgery or seems to be interested in any aspect of it. I have discussed with her different surgery results and my concerns and she just took it all in. She went to one lower surgery consult with me but due to her knowing about my level of dysphoria left the room for certain aspects of the consult. (Mostly the exam part). One of the surgeons I was considering she knows and has seen multiple times. The others she has never heard of and outside of the one she went to the consult with me for she couldn't repeat any of their names if she tried.

That all being said tonight when we were having this "talk" I informed her of what I found and my expanding interest in one particular surgeon. I was originally going to go with a particular surgeon as sort of my "safe choice" which would involve me just getting a meta. I already provided the "safe" surgeon's office with my insurance information and everything to be submitted. Tonight my wife said that she knows I really want a phallo and she thinks that after my hysto (Which is in 8 days) go back and see the surgeon again for a free consult (consult was free for me last time because insurance paid for it) then go from there. She stated if the surgeon can do what I NEED (My needs have changed since the last consult) and the insurance stuff works out then it would be worth it because he is closer and if there are any complications I won't really have to travel. If he can't do what I need then see about the other surgeon which is further away.

This really made me feel good eventhough the reality of discussing my need for surgery on my penis is weird with my wife. I thought all this time she was blocking me out or just didn't really care but it shows that she has been listening and eventhough she can't remember all the surgeons names she knows enough about why I am interested in different surgeons to give her opinion on the matter though she respects and encourages the final decision to be mine and mine alone.

3 comments:

  1. This is great to hear. My wife has no clue what a lot of things are (concerning transition) and I dont really talk to her much about stuff either. It just seems awkward to have penis conversations with her. At least your wife supports you fully!

    Congrats on everything moving along! You deserve this and so much more!

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  2. I totally agree. It's great that she is dully supportive an that even though you CHOOSE to speak to her, she kinda gets it. That's what's up, your better than me. I justvsont want to talk anymore. Congrats again cris and oh yea, I enjoyed our talk while u were waging clothes lmfao

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  3. It sounds like you have an awesome wife.

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