Don't bite the hand that feeds you...

I am having one of those days where I want to just kick someone! I have helped MANY guys when it comes to transition stuff. I have helped many people in general but I put way more effort and time to helping men in the "community". But I am really getting sick of guys talking crap! Saying "Cris doesn't help ANYONE!" Have you lost your damn mind!
For example I have helped:
-At last count as of this week 50+ guys get top surgery paid for by insurance.
-I have helped guys get hystos while listed as male with insurance.
-I have helped HUNDREDS of guys start T by either referring them to either Therapists, endocrinologist or primary care docs so their process could move along.
-I even started a Damn TRANS HEALTH CLINIC for the community!I see my doc privately for my I don't need a Transclinic but I started one with a respectful MH provider, respectful Doctors and referrals for anything related to transition.
-I even have taken money out of my own pocket to help donate to people with their transition. (I am myself a donation away from needing a fund to help me).

I don't want a prize, I DON'T EVEN CHARGE (and I could cause I have the credentials to do so), I don't even expect a thank you (though it would be nice) BUT WHY TALK CRAP ABOUT ME! Why smile in my face when you want something then talk about me like a dog?! Are you freakin' serious!

That is just really going too far. I jeopardize my being "stealth" to help guys because they are in need then some ungrateful punks want to sit around and talk about me?!

Now if I get mad and stop helping everyone then I will be another "Mean post-transition man that went stealth"! Well people need to start looking about what part they have to play in that.

Why should I continue to help you when you bite the hand that feeds you?!

Then there are the other set of guys who are like "hey prettyboicris I want us to be the bestest friends EVER!" but they only remember my number when they want something. Well SCREW YOU TOO! If this keeps up I'm really gonna just stop. If someone has wrong info, I will look the otherway. If some needs help navigating insurance I will keep my mouth shut. I may bow out and leave the clinic to it's own devices and when it goes down the toilet like other places have not give a rats butt! I will stop writing letters for surgery scholarships, I will stop going to court to help with name changes cause people are nervous, I will stop answering calls to ask questions, I will stop running forums and just stop it ALL.

I so freaking serious I am so pissed right now you don't even know the half. Just as nice as I am I can be a cold and vindictive bastard! I don't want to be like that but if you keep adding fuel to an already burning fire it is already a matter of time til someone gets burned!
I am wasting time helping people and I am delaying my own process I could have BEEN had my own hysto and lower surgery (at least first stage) by now!

I am interested in your comments on this one. Talk to me people!

Respect the PENIS!

I keep reading on forums and hearing guys say. "I/We will never have a penis so I/we will NEVER be like 'real' guys." UGH it drives me mad! I don't know about anyone else but even without bottom surgery I definitely have a penis! Also what the hell is a "real guy"?! I'm a real guy. I'm not a "fake guy" I can tell you that for sure! Sometimes I want to ask these guys "well if you are never gonna be a 'real guy' then why bother spend thousands of dollars transitioning and emphasizing people call you HE?"
Me being the nice guy I am I tend to be more tactful and educate people about using "problematic language" while in my head saying "SHUT THE f$%$ UP you fool!".

Hey but that is just me. Between T and pumping I definitely have a beautiful penis and I love it. I do want to "enhance" the aesthetic with bottom surgery BUT whether I have bottom surgery or not I still have a penis! Please stop ignoring the penis and RESPECT IT!