Letting go.

I have finding myself lately realizing that I need to let go. I always knew that once I got comfortable in my own skin that it would be easier for me to live life. What I realize more and more is that I can not completely move forward without letting go of a lot of stuff. I thought the only thing that I needed to let go of was the past. I realize that I also need to let go of a lot of the stress and hurt I have from not allowing myself to be happy. I also realize that even in my new happier shell I need to let go of the ways that I chose my friends as well as the different half ass ways of me justifying keeping toxic friends.

I find myself surveying my friends as well as associates lately. I feel like I have to asses for me who I need to keep in my life and who I really need to let go of. There are some people without question that must go due to how toxic they are for me and how they trigger negativity in me.

I find myself moving more in the direction of people goal oriented and focused on achieving those goals. Anyone can have goals but not everyone actual works towards achieving those goals. I need to move myself from being around people making excuses. I need to move myself away from people who constantly say "I can't". I have made a promise to myself that I will not utter the words "I can't" unless it is followed by the word fail. Me being able to say "I can't fail" is one of the most powerful statements that I could make in my pursuit of happiness and achieving my goals.

I have been spending more time with differnt people either by going out to eat with them or just sitting and talking about things of importance to us.
I find that this has helped me see who I could build a more quality relationship with and who is just around just because we "should be friends" since we are part of "The same community."

I used to feel like I had to get along with everyone if we were part of the same "community" but just because we share some sort of identity or social class does not make us need to be BFF! I used to feel bad for feeling this way but now I embrace it! It allows me to be more authentic in my friendships and connect with people because I want to and not because I have to!

I am living more for my quality of friends as opposed to quantity of friends.

Letting go of toxic ways and toxic people.