Update!

Only about 17 days left til surgery. Yeah! I got some loose shorts that are breathable so that when I get back from surgery I have more options. The shorts are softer, roomier and seem great for recovery post op. I am excited yet for some reason I feel like I am dreaming. I want to fast forward to being Post op.

I have been doing extra cardio at the gym to help me with my recovery post op. I have aso been taking vitamin C and a cranberry vitamin that will Aid in my Urniary tract health.
I was feeling a little bad that I have not blogging everyday but I thought about it and once I have surgery I will be posting about my healing everyday and possibly even multiple times a day just so I don't forget anything.

Another thing I don't have to worry about!

My ID was going to expire on my birthday which is basically a week before surgery. The only day off I had coming up was the day after my birthday which would only allow me 4 days to get my ID before I left for surgery. My state makes me wait for it in the mail.
I knew that would be cutting it close so I tried to apply for a renewal online since that is available. I did it on the 15th of July. They say allow 2-4 weeks it was in the mail last night which was July 27th. Came in 12 days SWEET! The only thing is that this picture is really clear and it accentuates the fact that I took the picture when I looked like a 16 year old boy. I plan to be clean shaven for surgery anyway so I guess that will help thwart any red flags that come up at the airport. lol. I am happy that I got another thing out of the way. 20 days left.

Sharing pictures

I have been playing with the idea of sharing pictures but as I get closer to surgery I really don't know if I will. At least not on the net.My wife made some good points about how With people spamming and stealing content it wouldn't be a good idea. On one hand I have only seen one penis from a guy of my complexion on the net. I appreciated that. I want to sort of pay it forward. I think it would be ironic that I don't really show my chest because I am modest and shy YET I am actually considering putting my penis out there. I think it has to do with the fact that there are dark skin men with top surgery pictures and as I mentioned only 1 of a post op penis 2 if I consider the one a shade or so lighter.

I don't want my genitals up for judgement. I have heard the things people say of even the best of surgery and how discouraging people can be. If I saw or heard those things about my post op genitals I would feel awkward. I would also feel upset for me putting myself in such a vulnerable position to have people be negative and judgemental. My wife worries about this too and fears it will make my dysphoria worse. When I think of this I understand why there are not as many photos out there.

I guess I will just have to see how I feel post op and go from there. I will definitly be taking photos to track my healing and for my personal viewing.

22 days to go til lower surgery and stopping T

I am 22 days away from having lower surgery. I didn't take my T shot yesterday. I called my Surgeon today asking when I was supposed to stop because I didn't recall having to stop but other guys were telling me I should. I asked around and no one has really been responding. I guess we will see. I stopped it more so for my own comfort because I am scared to get an erection while I have stitches in my penis. That wouldn't be fun! I know a guy who had meta and said he got a hard on and it was soooo painful while recovering. I will admit that I am concerned that not taking my T will cause shrinkage but even with that I am good size for surgery so I am not gonna stress too much. If it really starts to get to me then I will take my shot but as of right now I dont think Im gonna take it until after surgery.

Getting my body ready

I am very proud of myself because I feel my body getting stronger. Not just in the physical sense but also the spiritual sense. I have been going to the gym and really focusing my energy. Since joining the gym I have mentally been in a better place. I feel really calm despite all the stuff going on with me and around me.

I started taking vitamin C today for my immune system. I also started taking a cranberry pill to promot urinary tract health since I am getting urehtral lengthening. I will take it up until the week before surgery then start back up after surgery. I also have been drinking more water and eating more fruit. I feel like my health and fitness is the only thing left for me to control while I count down the days.

24 days left til surgery!

I really like my new gym

I worked out again tonight and it was AWESOME. Tonight there were a lot more people at the gym but there was still space for me to work out and not have to wait so that reinforced the fact that I made a good pick. I also have a friend who worked out with me 2 times of the 3 times I went to work out and he is turning out to be an awesome gym buddy. In the past my workout buddies have been guys who are already set in their workout routine and they are trying to help me get on one. He hasnt been working out too consistantly either so both of us as basically starting fresh to develop good habits and since we are in the same place I feel it is easier for us to support each other.
I also like the fact that we can workout together on the same muscle group but also separate and do our own thing. In the past I felt pressured by my workout buddies to be their shadow and do exactly as they did if I wanted to see results. I am really liking my new gym and I am kind of sad that I will only be able to work out for a month then I have to stop because of my upcoming surgery. I do plan to put in as much gym time as possible pre-op and after surgery really get in there. I plan to have my body looking the way I want it to by next summer. It is nice now but I want it to be SMOKING next summer. I want heads to turn. lol. Every once in a while a little extra attention is nice.

Another GREAT day!

Today I decided that it would be best for me to stay in a hotel than the surgery apartment available. I am happy with my decision and think overall it will promote my healing because I will be very ZEN in a space that I have control over who comes and goes. I sent the last of what paperwork I needed to send before surgery. I am officially good to go!

I had a check list of things that needed to be done.

Medical clearance- CHECK

Insurance confirmation for agreement to pay for surgery- CHECK

Plane Tickets- CHECK

Hotel Reserved- CHECK

Transportation from Airport and back- CHECK
(The airport is 2 hrs away from where I am having surgery and I don't drive so this is VERY important)

Medical leave approval- CHECK


The office coordinator for my surgeon asked me about my letter and how many I needed post op. The first one is free and any additional letters are $20 a pop. I don't know how many to get because everything is pretty much changed. I said 3 but I don't think I need that many. Maybe I will only need 2. I guess I will get the 3 to be on the safe side. I also asked about getting a copy of the OR report and I was told I could get that most likely before I leave town after surgery and that would be free. For the state I was born in I need that to seal my records so I will definitely submit that along with my SRS letter. Im due for a new passport so I will use a letter for that too so I can just be done with that and not have to explain anything ever again!
It still doesn't feel too real but it's getting there! I am getting more and more excited I must say. I am starting to have dreams about my post op body and all the wonderful things that come with that for me.